Sentients?

It's almost as if life is happening without me. And that's okay, if it wasn't that it was my life happening without me. I'm living everyday without me. I'm making decisions without me. I'm doing many things, without me. I'm just watching it happen. I'm just watching myself, can't stop myself, just carrying on, without myself. Like I'm someone else, but it's me. Have no one else to blame, but me. Cannot point to anyone, besides me. But it's not me. But who else could it be but me? who else could it be but me? -Fez [continuation of the Steps to Insanity series].

He asked me "damn why and how do you do so much?" Little did he know I asked myself the same damn thing not so long ago. Except he still thinks, I'm still doing a-lot. When really things have changed and in comparison I am doing nothing at all. See, I never really had the time to question it. He really isn't the first to ask. See, I never really had the time to think about it. As he really isn't the first to ask. But now that the pace is different, the life is different, my eyes be different. There are some things I guess I never noticed. Some things you can never notice when you are doing "so much" There are some things I guess I should've noticed. But I was doing too much. And would I go back now? To the too much life now that I know the truth? I wouldn't even hesitate... It was a shield... I didn't even know it but I was protecting myself... From the real truth, from my real life. From the downsizing ...

I don't know how I didn't hear it through the silence, I'm so used to being  busy and it's been quiet. I'm so used to the fast life the fast pace the fast times. That it completely slipped my  mind that everything's been idle. I need to keep it busy. I have to keep it busy. I want to keep it busy. To stay out of my head. Well it's what I thought I've been doing. Staying out of my head. I was wrong. I don't even see the flips  switch I'm just off. And on and off and on it never ends. Constantly in my head thinking well damn. If I could breathing now today. What will they all have to say. And why they couldn't say it to my face. And then I realise I don't care... But what exactly do I  care about? If it's not them, and it's not life, the fuck am I wasting this oxygen for? The fuck am I wasting th...

I've been joking about losing my mind and breaking apart for so long. That I didn't even see it when it happened. I've been joking about losing my mind and breaking apart for so long. In anticipation that it would happen. I've been saying that I'm losing my mind and breaking apart for so long. That I didn't even see the signs. I've been saying that I'm losing my mind and breaking apart for so long. That I didn't even hear the sound of the snap...  when I finally broke... -Fez [continuation of the Steps to Insanity series]. -