Tales between Two: Cut Me Open I

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"Cut me open"

what??

"Cut me open!"

what the fuck for??

"Just trust me please..."

...

...


"Please..."


are you insane??
have you lost your fucken mind?

"Not yet but if you don't help me I just might?"

and cutting you open won't help catalyst that?

"No it won't just trust me!"

No! that's insane I won't do it!!

"You're killing me!"

as opposed to cutting you open and letting you bleed to death??

"it's not the same!"

Oh wait so you plan to die??
and what do I say to the cops, haha, it's what they wanted?

"I just need you to take it away..."

take what away?

"Cut me open please..."

take...

what...

away?

"it hurts please cut me open!"

TAKE WHAT A-FUCKEN-WAY!??

"The pain in my chest okay!
the pain just below my cavity...
the pain that stabs me daily...
the pain that makes me sick...

the pain that constantly hurts me...
the pain that constantly haunts me...

I need you to pull out the pain...

cause if I'm gonna die at-least I'll die in peace...

but any other way means I lived and died carrying the same fucken pain so please just...


just cut me open..."


That's not fair...

"Just... "

No!
That's not fucken fair!
So if I do it and you
die
that's on me.
And if I don't and you're still
hurting
that's still on me!?


"I don't expect you to understand"

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"I don't expect you to carry this weight on your shoulders"

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"But you're the only person I trust"

don't...

"and I know that in the event something goes wrong you wouldn't let me die"

stop please...

"and I know that if I do die, you would've done everything that was physically in your control
to keep me alive"

don't please...

"you're the only person who can help me"

please...

"cut me open..."

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to be continued.
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-Fez







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