pg23.

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alright, let's begin then.

It's so easy for you to say I'm what you need in your life while you sitting there sipping away
"you just what I need"
In all honesty, I could be all just that
the woman that saved you from yourself

but I feel like you don't know how selfish those words are
expecting my growth to be the answer to your self pitty

I'm not saying I do not care
I'm not saying I'm the answer either

what I'm saying is its not my place.

would you care to know how I got here?

I had to die to want to live again.
my eyes blood red from the tears that filled the bathtub I laid in.
my skin painted with marks of those I let have me.

I found myself screaming at mirrors because I hated what I saw in front of me.

I was broken
hurt in places I didn't know you could find pain in.

I watched my self die a little each time I took a line and saw my self in the reflection of the glass table seated in a room full of strangers brought together by our lust for each other.

I smoked till I became the joint,
passed around, pull closer, kissed and let go

I was...

nothing but the girl on the hill.

it was not easy

I'm not saying you thought it was either
but do you understand I'm nowhere near done

I've healed my physical attributes.
I've mended my emotional state.

but do you understand that I'm not done with my healing?


















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