Okay? Okay.

-
Wait...

...Wait

...Wait...

Can you hear that??

The echos in my
hole.

Swallowed and consumed by my thoughts,
the emptiness of my soul.

...Wait...

Can you see that??

The pain that pierces into my
chest.

As though every breath
is a struggle I deserve.

...Damn...

Can't believe I'm still living
restlessly.

Trapped in a cycle of why the fuck am I here,
but also where else would I be.

...Oh shit, that's my bad...

I keep getting snatched by the darkness that
surrounds.

All these heavy clouds,
all the screams - I mean - all the thunders are loud.

...Okay wait, let me slow down...

slow down my
pace.

Maybe my heart will stop racing,
maybe my heart will stop ... uhm...

...Wait

Wait...

...Wait...

We really can't be here again.

Shh

Quiet it
down.

Silence your mind a bit,
we need to get out again.

Listen...

...Listen

You were doing so well,
you need to get back again.


Hey!

SNAP OUT OF IT!

Just wait...


Maybe we'll be fine again.

Okay?


okay.

-Fez



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