Disguised

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Sometimes I feel so bad,

that you guys got me.


A curse disguised as a blessing.

A mess disguised as a child.


You could've gotten any one else,

but you were dropped with me.


An endless reminder of your life choices,

an endless story, with endless plot twists.


I wish I could do you proud,

but maybe I just cant.


I wish I could do you proud,

but sometimes I just cant.


I don't know if it was written in the stars,

for things to be this way.


But for what it's worth.

I am so sorry.


I am so sorry you guys got me.


A curse disguised as a blessing.

A mess disguised as a child.


-Fez

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