Dead to You

-
I
wish I was
dead to you.

I
wish you believed I was
pale and blue.

I
wish I was someone who was
departed to you.

I
hope it will
bring you some good.

I
think it will only be then, that you'll think
well of me.

I
then think maybe for once you could feel
positive things.

As
people do, you know, for the people
deceased.

A
staggering
obituary.

As
you cried your fake
tears for me.

filled with dishonesty.

But
here I
am

Alive
and
well.

But
here I
am.

Your
living
nightmare.

And
I wish
I was dead.

To
you
that is.

Maybe
your pain
would end.

Maybe
you could rest
your chest.

But
until then
goodluck.

With
whatever the fuck
this is.

Where
I wish I was
dead to you.

Man
I wish I was dead to
you.

Fez

Comments

  1. JordsSeptember 6, 2021 at 8:37 AM

    Dead to me.
    I wish they were dead to me.
    That way I will be free.
    I wouldn’t care what they think or try and make sense of the way they treat me.
    Their existence would leave that part of my mind empty.
    Not seeing them would erase the reminders of the pain they caused me.
    Their judgements will not longer find rest in my heart, like decaying autumn leaves under their once life giving trees.
    Dead to me.
    Dead to mind.
    I can now finally be free.

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