It's Me

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Hearing the same shit

constantly

from everyone around me.


The same fucking

dialog,

the same fucking script.


Hearing the same damn thing

every so often

from everyone around me.


The subject is

me,

the problem it seems.


Hearing the same synonyms

describing

me, who I am, and the trouble it brings.


So it has to be

me,

the problem is me.


Because this many people can't be talking

shit

the same damn shit, when talking about me.


Because this many people can't be that far

fetched

Their truth can't be so stretched, if it's all the same.


Because this many people, with nothing in

common,

not in the same spaces. They can't have the same shit, to say about me.


So it has to be

me...

I'm the problem.


So it has to be

me...

Something is wrong with me...


-Fez

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