These Days

 And yea...

The leaves are still falling off.

And yea...

The weather is still up in arms.

And yes...

I still can't see what's going on.

And yes...

I still feel like I'm losing hope.

But,

The days seem a little less long lately,

and the sun tends to shine on me a little bit lately,

and I hear the music a bit more,

and I smile a little more,

and,

I might not be whole, 

but I'm not fixating on the emptiness as much.

And,

I might not be whole,

but I'm seeing a bit more of the glass half full.

Look,

I still have a long fucken way to go,

A road I can't even see right now.

But,

I think I'm doing okay,

I hope I'm doing okay...

Because that darkness man...

It consumes me,

And sometimes I wonder, what it's like to dance with the sun.

And sometimes I wonder, what it's like to feel the warmth of the light.

And these days,

Its not as cold as it used to be,

and these days,

I'm not as clouded as I used to be.

And I know this is just the up... Trying not to anticipate the down.

Today,

I feel happy,

And even if its just today.

I'm glad I felt something...

- Fez