Consequences

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I guess I never thought about the
consequences of my actions.

Despite my state of mind at the time they were created.

I guess I never thought it would be me
with no back bone.

Not enough self love to fight for me and the life I once had.

I guess I never thought about the
aftermath of it all.

The people I dragged down with me, or lack thereof...

I guess I never thought about anything

because if I did.

Maybe things would have turned out differently.

And I wouldn't have so many "what if's"
And I wouldn't have so many "used to be's"
And I wouldn't have so many "could've beens"
And I wouldn't have all this fucken rage
This fucken diagnosis
And this fucken pain...

I wouldn't play so close to death,
and I wouldn't let life still hold my name.

I mean I'd still be fucked up, if the past has any consistency.

But I would still be me...

I don't even know who I am anymore.

I guess I never thought...

That was my first mistake

- Fez.















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