I would've left me too...

When I look back at it all...

I don't think I blame you.

For walking out on me,

Without a word,

And then avoiding the topic,

When I confronted you

For walking out on me,

Without a word,

You made me a villain,

And I guess it was true.

When I look back at it all...

I don't know what's worse.

That you couldn't talk to me,

or that it felt like it was easy for you to do what you did.

Or that, I tried for months to talk to you,

and maybe it was hard for you to do what you did.

Leave me that is,

My best and longest friend...

When I look back at it all...

I don't think we could recover.

It's been almost a year now,

Too much has passed,

It's been almost a year now,

I'm sure we're both different people.

When I look back at it all...

I don't know what I could've changed...

I don't know what I did wrong,

But a part of me feels like I should,

I never got my closure,

So this will substitute.

I'm not saying you're the root of my demise,

But damn you sure catapulted me,

Atleast that's what the psychiatrist said.

I'm not saying you're the root of my demise,

But damn you sure catalysted me,

Atleast that's what my new insecurities said.

And also so we are both clear, I'm not victimizing myself,

I'm sure through it all, you were the victim.

And also so we are both clear, I'm not blaming you for anything,

I'm sure through it all, you were hurting.

And we never got to speak,

And I'm sure we never will.

I don't wish you ill.

When I look back at it all,

I wouldn't change a thing...

You played a huge role in my life, and I thank you for that,

I didn't imagine life without you

But that's okay.

You probably had your reasons,

I certainly had mine.

An ode to a friend.

I wish you a good life.

- Fez